Here is the deepest secret nobody knows

It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone.

2009-12-29T18:16:13Z

day 14 → a non-fictional book
I don't know if The Butcher's Tale counts as a nonfiction, but amazon puts it under that category, so I guess it qualifies. Non fiction really isn't the type of category I usually read. When I think about all the books that I have read that were non-fiction, the only ones that I really remember are all from the Holocaust course I took in gr12. Which is one of the reasons why I posted this for day 14. But there's also another reason. Recently I've been forgetting all that I've learned. My friend always uses the "Jew" stereotype about being cheap and I find the I am tempted to say it in replacement of the word stingy. I'm ashamed that I would reinforce this stereotype simply because I hear people saying it frequently. It's not like I believe in it or anything, it's just a word that comes to mind because so many people say it. I wish it wasn't like that because it's really not representative of my views and it just shows that so many people are unaware of what they are saying. So that's why I post this book. Because it's important to remember what I've learned and to stay informative so I don't become ignorant.

walk walk, fashion baby, work it, move that bitchy craaazy

2009-12-07T06:10:32Z

10. You should consider zones of personal space and touch when caring for clients. If you are taking the client's nursing history, you should be

a. 0 - 45cm from client

b. 45cm - 1m from client

c. 1 - 4m from client

d. 4m or further from client

THE FUDGE IF I KNOW!? ): Been studying for two exams all weekend (more like the past hour) and I already want to slap someone. Namely a nurse. Preferably one of my Profs (no offense). Ahhhhhhh! EXAM IN 7 HOURS!!!! FRIG.

day 09 → a photo you took

day 10 → a photo of you taken over ten years ago

Think I was 4? Maybe less. I'm the one on the right. :)

day 11 → a photo of you taken recently

Can't wait for Christmas! :)

day 12 → whatever tickles your fancy

Turtle man I stalked at a concert (Warp tour 09?) It was a REALLY hot day too

day 13 → a fictional book

My most memorable childhood book. If one fish equals two fish, does red fish equal blue fish?
One time Mr.Berry (my Holocaust/English Gr12 teacher) told us that Dr.Seuss was a Nazi Doctor. I believed him. Ughk, not the brightest cookie of the bunch.

WISH ME LUCK! :)

Nothings gonna change my world.

2009-12-02T16:40:11Z

day 08 → a photo that makes you angry/sad
In contrast to my previous post, I found this on my tumblr feed today. This makes me so angry and sad. It just pulls at my heart and makes me so upset at the world. WHY the hell would someone do this? Ughk, this just disgusts me. I fully believe karma's a bitch and that whoever did this to the kittens will have it coming for a lonnnnng friggin' time. I've posted the full story under the picture, but if you don't want to depress yourself, I recommend not reading it. ):

http://www.chinasmack.com/pictures/kittens-found-abused-dead-mother-kunming/

I feel ontop of the world

2009-12-02T04:15:11Z

day 07 → a photo that makes you happy

This picture makes me the happiest person in the world ! Makes me feel like there's nothing sad or cruel about the world and it just fills me with so much warmth and hope. :) Whoevers puppy this is, please keep him/her safe and happy forever.

'cause you're a criminal as long as you're mine.

2009-11-30T15:05:02Z

day 03 → your favourite television program

Although I have been very unfaithful, although the characters keep changing, although I no longer have time to catch the show and have lent all my dvds out, Grey's Anatomy will forever and always be my favourite television program. My favourite character is Christina, but her storyline is starting to bug me, so my favour is slowly changing to Derek, aka. McDreamy. :) I love Grey's Anatomy and there's nothing about the show I don't absolutely love or quote. I think I would die the day I find a situation irl that I can't relate back to the show. I think it was this show that actually convinced me into going into the medical profession. I mean, I could probably never make it as a surgeon because I just don't have the attention span for so many years of schooling, but the Chinese scrub nurse in the OR room looked like an easy goal. :D So for those of you who don't watch Grey's Anatomy, I would highly suggest you give it a shot. It is my Religious view on Facebook, so it must be good !

day 04 → your favourite book
My favourite book of all time is The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger . I love this book so much. I know it's sappy and the progression of the book is slow and the character development is even slower, but i don't care. I adore this book (hence why it's my favourite). I'm just a sucker for a tragic romance and the way this story works out, it just happens to be the kind of romance that I think everyone would want. Not the tragic part, but the part where the couple waits to see each other so faithfully and how they love each other so unconditionally. It's just so..nice. I actually found this book when I read this CCS fanfiction along time ago. :) I still remember it too! The story was based on that song by Panic! at the disco. The one about the brides maid being a whore? Ugh. I don't remember. Btw, book>>>>>movie. By far.

day 05 → your favourite quote

This is my all time favourite quotation. It comes from Alice In Wonderland which I have this crazy fascination with.

day 06 → whatever tickles your fancy
Well currently I'm playing Bejewel Blitz on Facebook and I'm really addicted to this game. :) CHALLENGE MEEEE!

I am so there, it's insane.

2009-11-26T01:57:16Z

day 01 → your favourite song
day 02 → your favourite movie
day 03 → your favourite television program
day 04 → your favourite book
day 05 → your favourite quote
day 06 → whatever tickles your fancy
day 07 → a photo that makes you happy
day 08 → a photo that makes you angry/sad
day 09 → a photo you took
day 10 → a photo of you taken over ten years ago
day 11 → a photo of you taken recently
day 12 → whatever tickles your fancy
day 13 → a fictional book
day 14 → a non-fictional book
day 15 → a fanfic
day 16 → a song that makes you cry (or nearly)
day 17 → an art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.)
day 18 → whatever tickles your fancy
day 19 → a talent of yours
day 20 → a hobbie of yours
day 21 → a recipe
day 22 → a website
day 23 → a YouTube video
day 24 → whatever tickles your fancy
day 25 → your day, in great detail
day 26 → your week, in great detail
day 27 → this month, in great detail
day 28 → this year, in great detail
day 29 → hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days
day 30 → whatever tickles your fancy

day 02 → your favourite movie

One of my all time favourite movie is She`s the Man.

Mean Girls was a good movie, but She`s the Man is still the best. Everytime I watch this movie, I laugh until I tear and have to hold in my pee because I don`t want to miss any part of the movie. Every quotation in this movie is funny and every character in this movie is love. :) My favourite part of the movie is...I can`t choose one. That`s how much I love it. I need to watch it again soon!

I baked a cake! Nomnomnom! Hope it tastes good! The batter was too much for the pan ): Hope I can still get it out.

In search of the perfect blend of steak knife and non-stick frying pan

2009-11-25T06:55:52Z

thirty days of sharing

day 01 → your favourite song
day 02 → your favourite movie
day 03 → your favourite television program
day 04 → your favourite book
day 05 → your favourite quote
day 06 → whatever tickles your fancy
day 07 → a photo that makes you happy
day 08 → a photo that makes you angry/sad
day 09 → a photo you took
day 10 → a photo of you taken over ten years ago
day 11 → a photo of you taken recently
day 12 → whatever tickles your fancy
day 13 → a fictional book
day 14 → a non-fictional book
day 15 → a fanfic
day 16 → a song that makes you cry (or nearly)
day 17 → an art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.)
day 18 → whatever tickles your fancy
day 19 → a talent of yours
day 20 → a hobbie of yours
day 21 → a recipe
day 22 → a website
day 23 → a YouTube video
day 24 → whatever tickles your fancy
day 25 → your day, in great detail
day 26 → your week, in great detail
day 27 → this month, in great detail
day 28 → this year, in great detail
day 29 → hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days
day 30 → whatever tickles your fancy

day 01 → your favourite song
My favourite song for the longest time now has been It had to be you by Motion City Soundtrack. It has been my ringtone for so long and when I discovered the acoustic track, I love that one just as much. I never get sick of this song, even though I abuse it like crazy. It's one of those songs that are so fun to sing, and the music video is so adorable. :) I just really love this song.

I'll get lost, messed up and bored when I'm alone too long
I can't sleep, function or eat when I'm not with someone
Late last fall, she ended it all and moved to who-knows-where
Just like that, she vanished and packed and never even called

You feel a certain sense of synergy between yourself and me
A kind of macabre and somber Wonder-twin kind of harmony
What if it was you?
You that I needed all along
I felt like a fool,
Kicking and screaming and pretending we were wrong

Let's get wrecked on pop tarts and sex and see the Taj Mahal
Let's save birds from Prince William Sound and skateboard through the mall
Let's fight crime with mangoes and limes and join the PGA
Let's win big with every spin but hurry, I can't wait

Do you spend a fortune on those late-night prepaid television scams
In search of the perfect blend of steak knife and non-stick frying pan?
What if it was you?
You that I needed all along
I felt like a fool
Thinking we were completely wrong
It seemed like a dream
A beautiful screen
That echoed forever
And made us not afraid to feel a thing

And after it ends
We'll try to be friends
They say that what doesn't kill us makes us who we are

All this time and everything's changed but I still feel the same
All good things eventually end and get washed down the drain
What a disaster it would be if you discovered that I cared
A little too much for friends but not enough to share

What if it was you?
You that I needed all along
I felt like a fool
Now that I'm sure that I was wrong
It had to be you.
It had to be you.
It had to be you.
I knew it was you.

You're exploding with cuteness!

2009-11-24T02:30:58Z

My sister's boyfriend's friend used to wear glasses and had like 400 degrees. He had a wife that would make him this special Chinese herbal drink and he drank it religiously for a year or something. He doesn't wear glasses anymore :) so now my sister and I are trying it to. My nursing science background tells me this is bogus, but my 600 degree eyes and Asian upbringing says HELL YESSSS I'M TRYING IT!

This is what it looks like. My sister says the Golgi berries are bitter..but that I should munch on the chrysanthemum flowers? If you're thinking wtf, guess what I'm thinking, haha.

Due to my high workload and overall laziness, I fell really behind in my manga readings. In lecture I found out that TRC had an epilogue up already and I freaked out a bit. So in my 3 hour lecture, I read it all. I cannot believe it ended. I feel all melancholic and weird. I also can't remember bits and pieces of it. Like how is the timeline for Syao/Saku vs. CLONE!Syao/Saku? I really don't remember. And I stopped reading XXXHolic so I am really confused with the whole Watanuki and Yuuko stuff. Still, the ending is so bittersweet. I had dreams about it during my nap. ): It made me sad and angry. Damn it Clamp, if you can do fan service by shoving CCS!Saku into the story, you can definitely fan service by throwing in more than hugs! I'm so sad the story ended!! T_____T

I die.

P.S: I got a new syaoran moodtheme by jlarinda :)

TEEN HORROR! D:

2009-11-22T04:33:03Z

I just came home from going to Starbucks with Elise, Derek, Shirley, and Mel B.

I got the Caramel Brule Latte :) nomnomnom

The most craziest fudged up thing just happened! So we were at Starbucks just having a good time and chatting and we ran into Summer and Katherine Dean? and they chatted with Mel a bit. Then Derek was all "let's go to MDHS (my old highschool) and visit! I wanna see the construction site!" So Shirley got in Mel's car and Elise and I went in Derek's and we drove off to MD.

Our car got there first so we just sat around and waited for Mel and them, but when they got there we decided to go stand where that garbage can by cold caf is. The reason we stood there is because it's the only place that had lights on.

The parking lot had like no lights for some reason. I think it's to discourage dumb teens like us to go there at night, hehe. So we just kinda stood around talking (mostly about Nelly, the MDHS janitor that died recently. She was symbolic of MDHS so it was really creepy talking about her in a location she is always at). Then OUT OF NOWHERE this car drives SUPER fast from Church street into the parking lot and like parks facing us and turns on its high beams. We're like suddenly standing in the middle of the lot with this blinding light coming at us and we just froze for a second and didn't know what to do.

It got kinda sketchy because in the silent dead of the night, the car suddenly turned on it's music and like it was sorta distant from where we were standing so it just sounded like a quiet droning. We started walking back towards the car (kinda cause we didn't know where the car was, the light was THAT bright). As we walked, the car started turning, following us with the lights and really, at first you can't tell that the car was following our direction. It felt like the Mona Lisa, where the eyes followed you! We were starting to get sooo creeped out.

I started taking pics of the car, incase I died and they found my camera, haha. See how bright it was? It was messing with my camera! It was pretty close to our car too, but in the next aisle (of those cement block things).

When we finally got to the cars, the sketchy car suddenly turned around and ZOOMED out of the parking lot back the way it came. As it passed us, someone threw a glass bottle at us and it happened so fast that not once did we even see a person in the car.

Felt like the beginning of a really fudged up teen horror film ): I will always, for the rest of my life (as long as I remember this memory anyways) wonder WHY and WHO would do such a crazy messed up thing. That was honestly so weird and creepy.

“But because things change. & friends leave. & life doesn’t stop for anybody.”

2009-11-09T05:27:07Z

I finished reading the Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky yesterday. It was a really...emotional book. I'm not quite sure if it's one of those books that I'd classify under favourites or love, but it was a very good book. It's very similar to Catcher in the Rye and I'm still not quite sure where I stand with that book either. It makes you all sad and melancholic but the end of the book gives you some hope but uncertainty about the future...it kinda just leaves you the way you wish it wouldn't. I'm not sure anyone will understand what I am trying to say, haha.

I haven't lj'd in so long and honestly, it's definitely because of Tumblr. I also hardly twitter now. The look of that tumblarity scale and that darned number and when it starts to drop D: it just kills me! Anyways, it's not just lj that I've neglected, it's my academic life in general. In class, I just sit and tumble.Lectures are so boring and it's not even anything profound and new that I can't learn on my own. It's all stuff that the profs are regurgitating from the textbooks. Makes me angry just thinking about the money I pay for tuitions! ):

This weekend, I did nothing productive. Even as I sit here and type this out I'm being super unproductive! On Friday, Adam, Viv, John, Wilson, and I went Laser tagging, bowling, and pool. It was what we called "game night". Adam beat us in laser tag, but he was totally cheating. Something was up with his gear! It was definitely rigged. We went bowling at club 300 and Vivian basically owned everyone. I got the first strike of the night, and I think that should be all that matters... :) Pool was..not good. I was on Wilson's team and let me just say, I am not built for that game! The sticks..and the table and everything about that game makes me bad at it! Also, Wilson was a horrible team mate! :)
I ran into Connie (Barker?) in the bathroom and that was sufficiently awkward.

Nothing else really to say. I mean, there are, but I really shouldn't write about them on Lj.
I can't even admit them to myself.

the heart goes lup dub.

2009-10-19T14:58:43Z

~~It is a work in progress, but in a while, I`ll be over you and then there won`t be a problem anymore.~~

I borrowed Love in time of the Cholera from the library. I really liked it but I had so much readings to do from classes that I never got to finish it before it was due. I`m so sad. I really wanna know how it ends. I`m such a sucker for romance novels (especially a tragic one!).

In ethics lecture right now. So bored. As bad of a philosophy teacher as Bower was, I've already learned all this philosophy stuff in grade 11. That surprises me because I thought Bower taught me nothing. Why am I paying for school anyways? This class is so pointless. YAWWWWN. ~~Actually, most of my classes are pointless~~. Yesterday I did a quiz on bed making. I got 12/15. Kind of pathetic, but considering I never make my bed (let alone a hospital bed) I guess I did fairly well. ): It's so nice outside, I can't believe I'm wasting away in this class.

Can you tell I feel pretty depressed atm? Siiighh.

you and i are a story that never gets told

2009-09-29T05:58:09Z

Gah! I haven't updated in so long! Haven't had the energy to write anything about my life. It's boring enough as it is sitting in lecture, I don't want to regurgitate it onto livejournal. I can't even remember most of the past 3-4 weeks. It's sad because it's like life is wasting away. Thank god it's flying by though, I can't stand sitting in those lectures if it went all the went to June like public school did!

College is making me poor, anti-social, breaking out, and draining all my energy. I hope everyone is doing okay!

I miss everyone. ♥ Come back soon. ):

your voice was the soundtrack of my summer

2009-07-24T08:50:22Z

Recently I've been sucked into doing a bunch of things I loved when I was younger. Visiting parks, riding bikes, talking about old times, playing Neopets and other childish games... But most of all, it's watching tv shows, listening to music, and reading stories that I've long forgotten about.

The other day I saw someone wearing a Rugrats shirt of Reptar and it brought back an epic chain of random childhood moments. Rugrats lead to YTV to Brainwash (which totally was replaced by The Zone, tho no one seems to remember!) which lead to Arthur to me remembering this one very scarring phone call I received, while watching Arthur...There was a creepy, custy man on the phone that asked an 8 year old me whether or not I liked hard penises. Scared me shitless. Sexual predators need to stay the fuck away. ):

But asides from that, childhood was good times. I've been going back and reading a lot of CCS fanfics lately that I used to adore. I mean, I never wrote any because I posess zero literary skills, but they were so pleasant to read. I used to be on FFN like all freaking day, reading. (Probs why my eye sight got so bad during my growth spurt) And for some reason, I can never stray away from CCS. Because they are the best couple. No matter what, ~~even if they are 2D and fictional~~. I could read a story about Syaoran stabbing Sakura mercilessly or soemthing (HE WOULD NEVER DO SUCH A THING NOR HAVE I EVER READ THIS!!!) and I would convince myself that he did it out of love for her.

I don't know why I'm rambling about this but I suddenly wish that I could remember years worths of CCS fanfiction all at once. I re-read a few from years ago and I still love them just as much. Once again I find that whenever I get sucked into FFN, I always think to myself, why does a day only have 24 hours?...who needs sleep anyways.. (which explains why it's almost 5am and I'm not in bed)

I'm so depressed now ): Why can't freaking CLAMP make a freaking movie based on pure fluff about Sakura and Syaoran getting along and being all in total love, peachy, and just hunky dory!? I don't even know where and why people use that expression because it sounds ridiculous but I want them to be just that. Hunky-freaking-dory. Just cause I like unrealistic stories of two people who fall in love over extrememly short amounts of time (usually their eye colour and the fact that one is either always "happy go lucky"/easy to aggravate while the other is super stone cold/super flirty are contributing factors ) doesn't mean you should laugh at me!

It's not my fault I like cliché stories that involve bets or rival gangs or kingdoms and clans and betrothals or throwing cards around that whip out magic!!!! Sometimes, I wish life was much more interesting like this..but I guess that's why I love reading the fanfics (:

He's been poisoned, you dumb dimbo!

2009-07-18T06:35:37Z

HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF BLOOD PRINNNCEEEEEE was so funny :D I never got around to reading the 6th and 7th book because during the wait after the 5th one I lost interest BUT after watching the movie, I think I may give it a chance again. The 5th book was very boring and kind of a filler in the whole series but I must have missed something because there was so much awkward teenage tension and drama in this installment! I love it. It's like they're grown up and suddenly they see the opposite sex. HEHE so funny. I love Ron and Hermione.

I always thought that Malfoy and Hermie were some kind of ..forbidden love thing that was bound to happen or be hinted at, but I guess that's just fanfiction revving up my imagination. Personally did not find the previous movies that good but perhaps that's because I read all the books before watching the movie. Knowing nothing about the movie actually helped alot becus it made it so much more interesting. Like I wasn't waiting for stuff to happen because I knew it was in the book OR waiting for stuff to happen that wasn't even in the film.

Overall I think this was my favourite out of all the Harry Potter movies, thus far. The theatre I went to see it in did not feel like IMAX, but maybe that's just because the one in Halifax was HUGE. We saw a little minature version of Jonah Hill and Harry Potter. Super adorable. Viv and I drew thunder bolts on our faces. I say faces because Viv would only let me draw it on her cheek. I had it on my forehead because I'm f'ing legit ! :D

On our way home, some custy men (who were like at least mid 20s) in Viv's neighbourhood were just sitting outside in their garage drinking/smoking. They kept whistling at us and calling us baby and sexy. It was so sketchy and why the fuck would you do that to your neighbours? Srsly. Grow the fuck up. It was bad enough when some Indians in her neighbourhood decided to smoke up in her freaking garage (and got her in trouble), but to make such inappropriate comments at your neighbours at like..11pm at night is just so rude.

Anyways, past few days has been fun. I have a sore throat 'cus for the passed two nights, viv and I ate nothing but junk food (mostly shrimp chips). Sleep time! Gotta go cleaning tmr!

Nighty nights!

P.S: mcbabblemouth/gigglez/bighead, glad I got to see you guys today! (:

dance dance dance 'til you're dead

2009-07-16T23:36:04Z

WEEEE THE KINNNGSS was awesome :D I still haven't figured out what the concert was called but it was very fun. Day started off with no sleep for me because I'm retarded and got sucked into reading thie CCS fanfic. I couldn't stop myself! I haven't read a good one in so long! I only got to chapter 12 out of the 15 updated so I really wanted to finish. That made me late for bussing to Shirle'ys house. I think I may have broken her backyard door but..shhh let's not talk about that.

So I bussed down to Kool Haus with Shirley and it was pretty uneventful mostly because I was like a freaking rock. I was too tired for any real conversation to take place. We mostly just sang a lot and were obnoxious at the other people on the subway. Met up with Sam and Viv who were pretty far up in line. There we met Tams, ~~Chris Brown~~ Nicholas Carter, Megan/Meghan (hope I'm spelling her name right), and Adrienne. (: Shirley and I bought McDees which seems to be the food for this summer. After some No Name brand Raspberry chocolate marshmellow puffs, a McD chicken snack wrap, a very cold fudgsicle, and two pieces of gum, we were in! :D I didn't buy any merch and we coat checked and then Shirley and I immediately squeezed outself into the crowded center stage. Days Difference started off and OH MAN they are so freaking adorable! I love them and their music is pretty good. The second song they played was very cute. I can't find their music ): just on last.fm and myspace but only like three songs. The lead singer/keyboardist is so freaking cute.
Ah. Jeremy <3 sorry that it's super pixelated. It's from my phone.

Cartel went up next. Kinda sad that they've been around for so long and We the kings is already out headlining them. One of the singers in Cartel looks like the principle in the She's the Man movie. Their soundcheck roadies sound check roadies suck ass because they were WAY too loud. The kind where the music isn't even moderately decent sounding because all I heard was freaking bass. It was like shoving your head into sub woofers or something. I had such a headache while they were playing. Didn't even want to sing along because my voice could never compete with that. Also there were these "See lie" moms (for you non Chinese folk, that means they were super duper Chinese mom-like figures..or actual moms) who brought their kids. I felt bad for this one brother cause he was so tiny and totally did not enjoy Cartel. I was surprised by the amount of little kids that were there with their parents. Could it be that the All Time Low's audience is all moms and their prepubescent children? I saw a few moms that were seriously rocking out in the back to ATL.

Anyways, then We The Kings came on and I freaked out a bit. Could Travis Clark be anymore of a total cutie? As far as crazy long haired punk rock band members go, I think I'm in love. I found a WTK's guitar pick. I was outside where they sign autographs when i found it. What are the chances of that? It looks seriosuly used. I will treasure this forever and ~~imagine that~~ it's Travis'. The WTK fans were pretty crazy. There was a HUGE moshpit and it got pretty nasty, pretty fast. I saw at least 3 crowd surfers that basically fell a good 2-3feet the moment they were lifted up. No one wants to pass you bitch, get off people's heads.

ATL was pretty funny. I never knew their voices were like that, it sounds completely different when they're singing. They're kind of one of those performers where they sound very different live. Kinda like Fergie. Not that they sound like Fergie, but that Fergie is one of those kinds of performers. Anyways, Jack and Alex are very funny. NGL, I enjoyed their talking in between the songs more than the songs itself. Shirley and I left after they played Holly turn me on or whatever. I think that was like the 4th last song or so. We went outside to get good autograph/picture spots. Which is when I found the WTK pick.

Days Difference came out first and holy crap they are so nice and cute and adorable. Took lots of pictures which I haven't uploaded. Vivian and Sam have most of the pictures anyways and I havent gotten it from them. Will post them up I guess when i get them. WTK left early because Travis was DJing at Strange Love so didn't even get to see them ): But took lots of silly pictures with the Days Diff. guys.
We dubbed this one MANTI. I wonder why. haha
Can't wait to see WTK and DD again. Honestly, don't care for ATL. No offense Sam/Tam.

Ended the night with passing out on the subway after devouring a dbl cheese burger. I woke up a few times and was seriously disoriented. Kind of like "WHERE AM I!?" out of no where. It happens when I sleep in class too. Shirley had to comfort me and tell me where I was.

Overall, a very good night. Totally worth the money and lack of sleep. :D

Peter Pan and Wendy turned out fine.

2009-06-23T10:21:02Z

MMVAS was awesome! It was hot, sweaty, and filled with fangirly cries :D I loved every moment of it (or at least most of it) Seeing Nick Jonas made all the times when some crazed ladies boobs/arms/bareback was rubbing against me worth it ! Lady Gaga was pretty awesome as well (I mean her boobs exploded, how can she not be?). Kelly Clarkson was there and I was surprised by how much bigger she is in person than in the music videos, not that that's a problem or anything. I was just surprised. Billy Talent...omg. They were amazing, but did you know that they're all like..+30 years old?! Crazy! And Fergie was hot! Minus the crazy super long fake nails on one of her hands. That was random. Apparently Perez HIlton and Will.i.am got in a fight? Did not see it but Perez Hilton bitched like mad on Twitter. Weirdo. Also, where did the black girl in Girlicious go!? They announced them as the "new and improved" haha. I will put pictures up later because I'm lazy :P
GRADUATING IN...12 SOMEWHAT HOURS!
Gaaah! I should be sleeping :P But I can't!!! Donkey Kong 64 is so fun! (I am now on Level 2!) Not really nervous about the grad thing, just excited. (:

Btw: HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY akemilove !!!
I know you saw my Facebook message but Lj is the right place for this!! Hope you had an awesome birthday and know that you are cooler than the Jonas brothers! without even trying!! :D (that is like..REALLY cool in my head)

it starts in my toes and i crinkle my noes.

2009-05-29T07:25:09Z

I AM SO TIRED! T___T I can't wait until graduation. :D
I miss prom preparations and all that hype.
There is nothing to look forward to now.
Only dread for projects, summatives, and exams. ):

Oh poop.

Oh but there is MMVAs and seeing Nick. (omg how cute was he today on the livechat?)
And the Pokemon party.
And Montreal?
Then the States.
Then College. Aiyah.

& as we walked we were talking; I didn't say half the things I wanted to

2009-05-19T06:52:12Z

I dreamt about the poem that Simone read as valedictorian at our grade 8 grad last night. It was kind of weird and when I woke up, it was even weirder because the visuals for that dream were about a crazy man (he looked like Mr.Bean) who was playing evil tag with me.'

I read of a man who stood to speak
At the funeral of a friend
He referred to the dates on her tombstone
From the beginning to the end.

He noted that first came the date of her birth
And spoke the following date with tears,
But he said what mattered most of all
Was the dash between those years.

For that dash represents all the time
That she spent alive on earth.
And now only those who loved her
Know what that little line is worth.

For it matters not how much we own;
The cars, the house, the cash,
What matters is how we live and love
And how we spend our dash.

So think about this long and hard.
Are there things you’d like to change?
For you never know how much time is left,
That can still be rearranged.

If we could just slow down enough
To consider what’s true and real
And always try to understand
The way other people feel.

And be less quick to anger,
And show appreciation more
And love the people in our lives
Like we’ve never loved before.

If we treat each other with respect,
And more often wear a smile
Remembering that this special dash
Might only last a little while

So, when your eulogy is being read
With your life’s actions to rehash
Would you be proud of the things they say
About how you spent your dash?

How funny was HIMYM tonight? Hehe season finale. It was so predictable that the wife would be in his class..but who is it D: I had like four Barney + Robin squee moments. Thought episode before was a bit more funny, but this ended off on a nice note. Can't wait for next season. No more shows to look forward to until then. Gotta catch up on my animes (TRC, xxxholic, ouran high, as well as some others I want to start), my Chinese soapies, and my English drama shows (Scrubs, 30 rock, The Office, and House). (: This summer is going to be awesome. I'm bummed out that if I go to the states with my family, I can't go to the Hey Monday or Warp concert. At least I'll be back to see We The Kings and All Time Low though. (: Twitter updates tell me that the JB concert is going well, hehe. They just finished their first concert in Lima, Peru. :D:D:D

若與你好有罪全是律例不對

2009-05-17T05:15:43Z

I think by now, everyone has already done their fair share of complaining about high school, of the slow arrival of the last month or so, of prom, of grad, of projects, of tests and exams, of teachers etc etc etc.

I also feel the same, but I'm also dreading it. Even though high school is in NO WAY the "best four years" of my life, it is still something that has been great. And even though this last year has been about as shitty as grade 10, and no where as fun as grade 11, it is still my senior year. It is one of the years that I'll remember because of the people that I've gotten to know and become close with. (: I don't really know where next year will take me and if I'll get into Ryerson (or if this program is even what I want) but that's part of the journey, right? I don't know where I'll be, if I'll even graduate (I mean, that data exam is Wednesday! D:) or where I'll be living and off what money, but I know that I will make a strong effort to keep in touch with everyone. Because I know it's a fear that many of us share, going into a new world and being alone. I just hope no one finds it annoying when their cellphone rings with like 20 twitter messagings informing them that I'm eating jell-o or something.Yes I just invented the word "messagings".

I'll miss the rib buns in the cafe and the Asian noodles. I'll miss the best teachers I've ever had, and maybe even some of the worst ones. I'll miss walking through the halls of MDHS and trying to avoid dangling spider webs. I'll miss the bad timings for the fire drills and the shitty water fountains I've never drank from. I'll miss the dirty floors and the carcinogenic air. I'll miss the smokers corner with the brown-like spit and the money robbing ice cream truck. I'll miss skidding down the ramp between 3rd hall and 2nd hall. I'll miss the "bat cave" and all the other weird, sketchy "alleyways" of the halls. I'll miss the two gyms and two cafes we have. I'll miss a lot of things. But most of all, I'll miss all of you.

I just can't believe prom is next Friday. (and I'm sorry Claud that I've disappointed you by not having a proper date, haha)

Dog ran away from me today. Scared the crap out of me. I ran from my street all the way to Wismer chasing him. Thank god some man running with his husky caught him. BB was trying to pick a fight with the dog. Who is four times his size. (:

Tsubasa Shunraiki is out! Second Ep :D OFF I GO TO WATCH!

if he were an apple he would be a delicious.

2009-05-02T05:37:02Z

Woke up very late today. Still working on that..sleeping early thing (as you can tell by the time of this post). Both Karen and I woke up at like...7:40AM? So yes, I got to school very very late. Could tell Mr.Lorde was not at all pleased with me. Heh. Spent a lot of time sitting around and gossiping because of the school political stuff. Grade 12s do not get to vote so first period was extended. (: Which is fine by me because I love communication technologies class. Went to Holocaust and English where we proceeded to have lengthy conversations about Swine flu.
Spent the rest of my school day helping Shirley with her English presentation and spending "quality time" with Neha. ;)

Went to Mville for a bit with Shirley and Sam and then proceeded to go to FMP where I bought a pair of pants and a yummy buttermilk blueberry muffin (from starbucks).
Shirley and I watched Obsessed (with Beyonce and Ali Larter and Irdis something). Was an okay movie. Really suspenseful and I felt REALLY bad for both Beyonce and Irdis's characters! (Gee, I hope that's the actor's name). The ending was a bit weird because Ali Larter is so freaking....I don't want to give the spoiler away but...in Heroes...WHY WON'T SHE GO?! xD She always comes back! Like holy. Her parts are always so drawn out! Anyways, wasn't a bad movie. Beyonce was really ghetto in it, as expected.

17 Again was a good movie to watch. I mean...staring at Zac Efron trying to be the perfect gentleman boy...guy for like 2 hours? Mmm awesome. However I am positive boys like his character in the movie DO NOT exist. And if they do...well they must all be hiding in a cave from the obsessive fangirls because I have yet to ever meet one. ): Hehe the movie is definitely going on my "to buy dvd" lists...along with Slumdog and some others that I don't remember.

Hope everyone is doing well and safe from the Swine Flu (and various other diseases and homework/tests)

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I'm tired of seeing this every day. Fucking Universities. You guys are such douche bags! T___T

1 - Bachelor of Science in Nursing:
Under Review

C'mon Ryerson! SHOW ME SOME LOVIN'!!! (:

i'm tired of trying, your teasing ain't enough.

2009-04-30T20:51:03Z

I used to have a list of books that I was sure that I would eventually read. I don't know where that list went anymore and in a way, I'm kind of disappointed in myself. Where did all my time go? It's like I've become so tired of things that I used to love. It's like actual books became a chore and the only text I could stomach was Cosmo/trashy movie guide magazines. I mean, I enjoy those too but..it's not the same.

When did I give up and stop challenging myself?

I really need to start going to school.

Drank water today. Check.
Done my homework. Check.
Read a chapter of...something. Will do!
7-8 hours of sleep. MUST DO.
Posted on my livejournal. done done and dooooone.

Today's emotional Thursday. (: Izzie's been getting really sick. I'm ready for a real good cry tonight.

BIIIIRTHDAY WEEEEEEEK!

2009-04-24T04:35:40Z

I LOVE YOU GUYS!
Thanks for the birthday wishes and the kind words when I was feeling low and crappy! I'm on my sisters laptop right now so can't really check my flist properly, but thanks guys! *GLOMPS*

Btw, loving the present so far :D
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEV PATEL! hehe

You can breathe but the air is running out.

2009-04-22T06:00:34Z

What I hate the most about you is that you always make it so that I become the "bad guy". It's my birthday ffs! Can't I be even a little bit concerned or selfish about it? Does it please you when you make me upset or something?! Because you're constantly doing that and I never even have to hear your voice or see you. Just cause you're mad does not mean that I owe you anything. You don't get to use that excuse. Being mad or angry is NO EXCUSE for any fucked up things you say or how fucked up you make me feel. I resent you so much, but I hate myself for still wanting to be friends with you. But you're a shitty ass friend! And I've been nothing but a considerate and supportive friend to your undeserving fucking self. God you are so self-centered. Even after all that, I still wanted to message you and ask if you were coming, if you were sleeping over, and if you still fucking want my data project or help on it. But you know what? Fuck you. Fuck you and your fucking life. If I walked out on your life right now, I'm not sure you would care enough to even realize why. Maybe you'd just think I randomly spaz at people and single them out, NOT because they are douchebags, but because they "don't use facebook." GOD. To think that we were even friends and you don't even KNOW ME enough to see that I'm not the selfish, psychotic, inconsiderate, asshole you make me to be -- ~~you fucking are! IT'S YOU!~~ And honestly, I don't care if you see this. And I don't care if you don't either. It's contradictive and stupid, but I still want to be your fucking friend ~~and if you or your girlfriend can't stand that, then too fucking bad. It's just a shame. Because you have no idea how much I care. Fucking asshole.~~ and NO, I don't care if I sound like a total bitch and you think that whtever tension is between us is MY fault.

*DEEP, SLOW BREATHS*
Woo now I feel so much better.

So this is my prom dress (:
I know it's not the most prom-like dress out there, but I really like it.
I hope no one gets the same prom dress as me cause that would really bum me out!

And soon you will see; you are meant for me, and I was meant for you

2009-04-21T08:35:11Z

Lately I've been sleeping way too late for it to be any good for my health. There's just so much to do in a day and there isn't enough time. I took a "nap" at 6pm today and it turned out more like sleeping. I woke up at 12-1ish and was totally confused. It felt like when I enter stores and come out completely lost. I have the worst sense of direction. I was so disoriented.

I lied in bed for like 5 minutes and then it hit me that I:
A. Did not finish all my homework - I had done some before taking my nap but then I didn't really finish.
B. Completely missed my dinner or even the constant screaming of my parents for me to go eat dinner.
C. I MISSED MY MONDAY NIGHT TV SHOWS! - House, Heroes, How I Met Your Mother ):

Now as I type my stummy keeps grumbling. I can't go eat because my dad is sleeping on the couch in the living room and if get food he'll wake up. He wakes up for work at about 5AM so I guess I'll just skip dinner tonight. I need to lose some weight for Prom anyways. haha. Prom is stressing. It's worst than applying for Uni/College cause at least for that, you're the one asking and waiting for a reply. It's so much easier to send a letter to an establishment and hope for your acceptance than to ask a stupid boy to Prom. It's all so over rated.(:

My birthday is in 3 days :D Not that it matters because I am not turning 19 which is the age I have to be to call into Z103.5FM in order to win the Jonas Brother trip contest thing! Why the hell would they use that age when clearly most of JB fans are well under 18 (Like me!)?

Hm, it feels weird to be this old. Don't you just miss the days when liking someone meant that you invited them to play four square with you? Or when homework was like this: "square, triangle, square, triangle; what comes next?". It was never about the people in your classes - that you thought were completely innocent and intelligent - going to wild march break parties and doing things that you would only think exists in pornos (probably ones that are titled Weapons Of Ass Destruction!). You also were not aware that pornos had such FUNNY titles! Revenge of the Shit: The All Anal Final Chapter? Oh man. Cracks me up.

Bah! Life.

have a cup of tea.

2009-04-15T10:52:04Z

Haven't posted in ages, and suddenly, here I am posting at 6:47AM. The girl who misses school because she couldn't be bothered to wake up. Well the solution was that I didn't even sleep tonight. I got caught up reading PS. I love you and then by the time I finished the book it was already 6:30AM, so I figured meeeeeh, might as well get ready for school. (Yeah, I don't expect you to understand this logic) CEPPPPT now I'm starting to feel dead tired. I think it's the fast flickering of the computer monitor that is lulling me to sleep..unconsciously.

Hum, something about staying up all night that makes me incredibly hungry and thirsty. I always crave something REALLY cold and fruity. Like super cold Nestea or Fruitopia. Got none of that...so I guess I'll go make a smoothie or something later on. Tea or coffee would probably help, but really not in the mood for that.

Don't even know what I'm livejournaling about anymore. (Have 3 tests tmr and a presentation!!)
Hope everyone has a splendid day!! (:

(HA! I can see Mr.Lorde's face now when I show up to class early...for once)